This is a chat between me and my lovable brother, C. This conversation took place during a time when I was figuring out about myself and how other people saw me. I'm sure I'm changing all the time, still, and I hope most of those changes are for the better. On to the conversation:
Do you know people LIKE me? Is that weird or what?
C says:
everyone likes you.
C says:
b/c you're sincere and friendly and outgoing. people dig that.
Tamra says:
I guess it still always surprises me.
C says:
in fact, those 3 same things are way people either don't like me or don't trust me. b/c i'm none of those 3.
C says:
why, not way.
C says:
or, at the *very* least, the initial impression i give is that i'm none of those things.
Tamra says:
No, you don't exude those things, do you.
Tamra says:
Sincere is your closest.
C says:
except i come off as sarcastic. there goes my sincerity!
Tamra says:
Tamra says:
Do you know HOW OFTEN people tell me that they really like me, though?
Tamra says:
It's insanity. People flock to me to tell me how great they think I am.
C says:
ah, they *tell* you for an entirely different reason.
Tamra says:
I don't even have to ask.
C says:
they tell you because you're a breath of fresh air. you're straightforwardless, tactless, and guileless.
C says:
straightforward (w/out the less). got thinking about what i wanted ot say next, sorry.
C says:
so they tell you for different reasons than why they like you. in my opinion.
Tamra says:
Interesting.
Tamra says:
That sounded like you've thought about all that before.
Tamra says:
But don't you think it's odd that people should feel the need to tell me repeatedly how much they like and appreciate me?
Tamra says:
I think it's odd.
C says:
nope. that was all off the top of my head. and it's probably all wrong. but it sounds right to me.
C says:
actually, i think that's a natural consequence of being friendly and a breath of fresh air. they can't just think "oh, i suppose she's nice" because you stick out. you're noticeable b/c of those other attributes.
C says:
if you were just friendly they could brush you off as some other nameless, faceless person. and if you were just a breath of fresh air they could dismiss you as kind of weird. but b/c you're both at the same time (which is exceptionally rare, i find), they're led to recognize you for your likability.
Tamra says:
That's very interesting. I'm going to copy that all down. It does make sense. But I guess I just never saw myself as all these things that people keep bringing up to me.
Tamra says:
I told mom the other day: Without knowing it, I have accomplished being you.
Tamra says:
you meaning Mom.
Tamra says:
I just think it's weird.
Tamra says:
It was funny, I told this to someone today and they said, "Like with your siblings." And I said, "Oh, no. My siblings I don't think see me as all that." :)
Tamra says:
I was talking specifically about how I have a ton of friends with vastly different opinions, and they all think I'm on their side.
Tamra says:
Which is fine by me.
C says:
C says:
what did you mean, specifically, w/ "like with your siblings"? what did she think was like your siblings?
Tamra says:
Oh, I was talking to her about how people all think I'm on their side. And she said, "Like, your siblings?"
Tamra says:
I ALMOST told her that my siblings knew better or something.
Tamra says:
Or that my siblings didn't really see me as as great as everyone else does.
Tamra says:
Tamra says:
I guess I just have not much of an idea at all of how other people see me or WHY they should really see me like that at all.
Tamra says:
I'm just me, you know?
C says:
i totally know. and you're a good you, so you shouldn't change much.
C says:
*i* think you're great. you think a lot different than i do, and i think it's fascinating.
Tamra says:
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