I am happy September is almost over. If I were to say how I felt about the last 5 weeks, it would be AWFUL. September was awful. I can't quite put into words why that is, but I'm so glad it's almost over with. It seems like I was really struggling, just inside my head. Nothing went wrong so much as I just felt crazy most of the time.
This is familiar territory, and I hate it. I fight so so so hard to not go there. I don't like it there. It's dark and lonely and empty and cold. I prefer Happy Tamra Land. It's like Candy Land - unpredictable and somewhat meaningless, but simple and fun. Stay in Happy Tamra Land, Tamra! Play again!
So I'm thrilled to be starting October in just a few days. I am full of anticipation. No more Rob traveling for 3 weeks straight, then hyper busy for another 2 weeks. No more losing my bearings because I'm not sure about life. No more feeling useless and unsettled and not good enough. No more lightly simmering anger and frustration. We can leave all of that in September.
October, I already love you.
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