Last Announcement / Story in my series.
Announcement: I'm stepping away from the Mormon church. Let's call it "taking a break."
Story: This one is way too complicated for a full story. I don't even have a definitive start time or a single plot line. So I'll skip to just recently.
I have found it difficult lately to reconcile my conscience with the church that I love. Having struggled with this for a very long time, and feeling like my spirituality was hitting rock bottom on a regular basis because of it, I decided that what I needed was some distance. So I gave myself permission to do just that.
It is amazing how freeing this has been. I'm really happy about it and excited to see where this journey will take me. I, myself, am not sure where it ends, I just know I'm happy to be where I'm at. For now, that's enough.
This, I realize, is alarming to some people. I can understand that. This path is new for me and a little scary. It's full of disappointing people that I love and potentially losing friends that I cherish. It's full of what if's and don't know's. But the place where I'm at right now is not a place of loss or fear. It's a place of peace and calm. It's a safe place without conflict. And having found this place for the first time in a long time, I intend to keep it.
I haven't abandoned everything about the Mormon church. It's still there. I'm not certain what I will do with it all. My intention is to go through it all, piece by piece, and decide what to do with it. It won't be a fast process, but I'm hoping that by the end, I'll have figured some new things out about myself and about my Heavenly Father.
Wish me luck!
(Feel free to ask me any questions that you'd like. If it's a personal question, e-mail me or call or come by for a visit. Don't worry that you'll offend. I'm not like that.)
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